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My week in pictures

Monday

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First of two hospital visits, with a little bit of work afterwards.

Tuesday

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My phone is full of photos of books I want to read, I loved The Miniaturist.

Wednesday

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An innocent meeting with my PhD supervisor ended with me giving up my PhD as illness and time are not working in my favour. Still hurts.

Thursday

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No heating at work and for some reason I am not sweating like a pig.

Friday

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Post Friday Film night cuddles in mummy’s bed.

Saturday

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My mum and I survived Lulu’s 6th Birthday party.

Sunday

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Fairy lights behind my bed? What more could a girl ask for???

 

My week in pictures

Monday

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Went on a trip to the Natural History Museum with Lucia’s school.

Tuesday

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Visited Wycombe Hospital who clearly have a ‘clean’ thing going on.

Wednesday

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Embracing the last of the summer sun.

Thursday

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Some lunchtime PhD study. Cheery stuff huh?

Friday

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Had a little trip to Amersham Hospital.

Saturday

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Got my ass in gear and actually blogged.

Sunday

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Found my perfect dungarees at Fatface.

My week in pictures

Monday

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Lucia’s daddy bought her a new bike in ‘Tiffany Blue” & she grew up over night!

Tuesday

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Had to get my hideous scarred legs out as I was SO hot.

Wednesday

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Did a spot of birthday shopping for M.

Thursday

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Off to another hospital, not for me for a change.

Friday

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Hospital appointment for me.

Saturday

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Took my leopard print shoes out for dinner, they never get to go out!!

Sunday

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Sun was shining so took pup pup for walk/run.

My week in pictures

Monday

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At the hospital….again

Tuesday

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Back to work

Wednesday

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My coffee flask becomes my permanent companion

Thursday

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Me and my pal

Friday

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Friday frolics

Saturday

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Off to the big smoke

Sunday

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Lucia went to see her dad

My week in pictures

Monday

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First of three trips to the hospital but my mani matches me boots.

Tuesday

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Lucia’s Starwars costume for party she need up too poorly to attend.

Wednesday

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Off school poorly.

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Refusing to sleep anywhere else apart from on top of me.

Thursday

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Back at hospital.

Friday

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Super King bed but all squished into one little space.

Saturday

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My face needed some loving care.

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Saturday night in A&E with Lucia.

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Lucia rocking cool kicks at the hospital.

Sunday

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Glitter makes everything better.

 

My week in pictures

Monday

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My vision cleared enough and for long enough for me to read a book, it was good.

Tuesday

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The very talented Miss Mercedes came to my house to give me a mani and pedi.

Wednesday

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Brushed up on illness before seeing Neurologist.

 

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Post hospital treat at Five Guys (gluten free obvs).

Thursday

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One of my besties came to see me.

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Another day another hospital.

Friday

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Had a quiet day hanging out with the puppy.

Saturday

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Not feeling great – Before.

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After.

Sunday

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Lucia’s dad adopted a new kitty cat.

My week in pictures

Monday

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Have had my beloved Filofax pristine for ten years. Two minutes with the puppy and this….

Tuesday

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Another day another hospital appointment.

Wednesday

 

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Gave in and watched Making a Murderer with puppy for company.

Thursday

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Glamorous movie star look – well actually felt exhausted so lingered in bed.

Friday

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Bedtime cuddles & some awful children programme on Netflix.

Saturday

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Spending time with a good friend was good for my soul. 

Sunday

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Lucia and I hanging out in bed, it was heaven.

ps

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Keeping it real – Lucia took this.

We keep this stuff in this photograph, we made these memories for ourselves

I didn’t want to do a ‘review’ of 2015 as, whilst looking back is interesting in some respects, for me over analysis is not always helpful. I am always mindful that ‘the past is a nice place to visit, but certainly not a good place to stay.’ So, I have chosen 12 photos that illustrate my 2015, there isn’t one from each month but one from each of the significant significant events that happened.

12 photos, 12 months

1.We got a Puppy

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2.Lulu started school

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3.I was off work and in ALL the hospitals

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4.I fractured my wrist

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5.I went to New York for the first time

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6.I went to Suffolk (twice)

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7.My Decree Nisi was granted

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8.Christmas happened

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9.I saw my mum, alot

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10.I planted and harvested from my allotment

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11.I got offered a place for my Phd at Oxford Brookes

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12. I turned 41

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I can see clearly now the rain has gone

The last few weeks remain challenging as my illness goes on as do my visits to hospitals & doctors & consultants – oh my.. but the latest developments is a blinding skull crushing endless headache that has been my constant companion for two weeks now, it is affecting my vision, I wear sunglasses all day and spent most of the time lying down in a darkened room. Screen time is limited because it is too painful and it also means I can’t read anything. I’m dosed up on lots of lovely painkillers that aren’t quite touching the sides of the pain and they mean that I can’t drive essentially leaving me housebound. This situation has therefore forced me to literally just ‘sit and be’.

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I was feeling most despairing of the situation until I hit upon a drug combo that helps lifts the pain slightly for a for a few hours a day and it has been during these periods of time that I have developed a clarity about the things that I enjoy doing and that bring me genuine pleasure. Top of my list is reading, I adore books, all looks, old books, new books, Amazon & Waterstones are my guilty late night online shopping addictions. I have missed reading for the last few weeks, my little forays into other lives and worlds, the importance of being able to pick up and immerse myself in a book has never occurred to me to be anything other than ‘just what I do’ but since I haven’t been able to I have been reminded what a simple and satisfying pleasure and, often a comfort,it is to me. It is not something I shall take for granted again.

I am now also extremely grateful to the BBC Radio podcasts that have allowed me to listen to books instead, so far Rogue Gerries, Mary Barton and part way through Vanity Fair. In Our Time has also become a firm favourite, a 45 minute discussion on a specific topic hosted Melvyn Brag with a panel of experts, the topics are very diverse; history, religion, science etc, it has taught me loads.

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As a parent, something I am ashamed to admit and wasn’t really fully aware of was the fact that when I am with baby Lulu I am not always 100% ‘present’. But lately we have been lying in bed together cuddling and talking , listening , and giggling together. I realise that gleaning pleasure from these things seem ridiculously obvious but for me I feel that its been the silver lining of my time off work, and the inability  of me to be detracted by the TV or phone or tech has given me the gift of time with her and it has been an honour.

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I’ve learnt not to sweat the little things too much, when you are in chronic pain, unable to see properly and suffering from insomnia the fact that I haven’t hoovered for  week and the floor has ‘bits’ on doesn’t seem very important at all, its not even been put high on the list of ‘things to do’. I have lost my appetite but cups of gorgeous to chocolate with sticky sweet unctuous marshmallow melting on top has brought me great comfort, as have hot water bottles on my neck, lying down for an afternoon nap, being able to really listen to what my body really needs, sleep, food, water, and the company go my constant companion, Livia.